Monday, January 2, 2012

a New Beginning

Sometimes you just have to take the present by the neck and drag it into the future. Like so many of us, I got stuck on that hamster-wheel.  I was peddling as fast as I could, but life kept overtaking any headway I could make. How did I get here? This wasn't in the plan. It was all I could do to keep up... and that was to get up, go to work and hope the car didn't break down so that the delicate ratio of cash in/cash out didn't set off another tailspin. And then; it happened…
Due to the current blip in the economy we’re
forced to cut staff… by like 60%.
Great, took a year just to learn this job.  A job I actually liked and made decent money at AND was close to home.  I knew it was too good to be true.  So I join the ranks of the unemployable… old enough to be too expensive to insure; too young to retire (hah, like that’s an option).   Oh yea, and there are no jobs out there.  Now I’m living on my savings, my future retirement and some freelance work.  Yea, life is good.

All my options were miserable... I hated all of them.  I needed a diversion... I discovered the joys of social networking... Facebook!  I don't care what anyone says, Facebook saved my life several times over... and you'll see why down the line. For now, it gave me a free distraction from my own reality.  I also read a lot of books, did some serious ancestry researching, began character development for a fantasy novel, and woke up one morning with a burning desire to learn French.  Not sure why, but I HAD to learn French, so I slowly started learning via the Internet and listening to France Inter radio.  It became an obsession.

"By believing passionately in something that still does not exist, we create it." ~ Franz Kafka
In my incessant, relentless researching I came across this quote. It became my mantra. I threw all my faith into that quote. If this is true then I can make something out of nothing... and nothing was what I had at the moment. What did I want? I wanted everything I thought I could never have so late in my life... the love of a good man and... an adventure.  Funny how life works... I got both.


  1. Good start, I like the layout and I'm lookin' forward to seeing some things in photo form and reading more........Love from him.....

  2. Excellent Tina, looking forward to the next thrilling installment!



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